The police station incident that day ultimately had some side effects. As time passed, Si Jiahe’s trepidation and unease even affected Tang Man’s life, making her feel a bit tired as well.
Because there was no need to conceal in front of her, Tang Man inevitably got influenced by Si Jiahe and sometimes also fell into a bad mood.
Therefore, Du Henian’s words that the two of them were not suitable kept flashing in her mind. During this period, Tang Man took Si Jiahe to see Doctor Bei and received a relatively lucky piece of news. Si Jiahe’s depression was only mild and had not yet reached a severe level.
However, another piece of bad news was that because he had stopped taking medication for a period of time, his condition had worsened. Si Jiahe could easily fall into a vortex of negative emotions, and his dependence on medication had become increasingly heavy. If he missed taking his medication even once, he would be restless all night and unable to sleep at all.
For several consecutive days, Si Jiahe called her almost continuously. There was one time when she didn’t answer the phone, and Si Jiahe almost had a breakdown. He curled up like a gloomy mushroom, hiding in a dark corner, tormenting himself into a miserable state, his eyes swollen red beyond recognition.
So, in this oppressive relationship, Tang Man felt a suffocating sense of dullness.
As a result, she subconsciously began to reduce contact between the two of them, only sending messages in the evening to inquire about Si Jiahe’s situation. On workdays, she tried not to see Si Jiahe anymore.
Du Henian was right.
She, Tang Man, was just such a cowardly person. She couldn’t bear the weight of this heavy affection, so in the end, she started using her old tricks again, wanting to discard it.
Si Jiahe might have also sensed Tang Man’s mood. He seemed to suddenly withdraw all his tentacles and wrapped himself into a round, black iron ball.
However, on one weekend, Tang Man discovered that the dark circles under Si Jiahe’s eyes had become even more prominent, his entire face was unusually pale, and his wrists seemed like they could be broken by her at any moment. It was almost summer now, and Si Jiahe’s hoodie looked like a loose robe on him, turning into a balloon with a gust of wind.
“You stopped taking your medication?”
Not having seen him for a while, Tang Man felt that something was off with Si Jiahe’s appearance. She unbuckled her seatbelt and got out of the car, only to have Si Jiahe suddenly pounce on her, his hands hugging her, almost strangling her.
“Man Man, why haven’t you come to see me these past few days?”
Tang Man patted the boy’s back, feeling that his waist had become thinner. She felt like she could lift him up entirely.
Her expression turned somewhat serious, “Jiahe, have you not been taking your medication again?”
Si Jiahe buried his head in her neck, acting coquettishly, slowly and gently touching her neck, which was her sensitive spot. Tang Man subconsciously hissed and pinched Si Jiahe’s waist, scolding him.
“Behave yourself.”
Only then did Si Jiahe stop his actions, still hugging her tightly, like a kangaroo hanging onto her. Tang Man sighed, and the two of them simply sat together in the back seat.
After Si Jiahe calmed down a bit, Tang Man continued to inquire, “Si Jiahe, did you stop taking your medication on your own again?”
Si Jiahe lowered his head, not answering.
Tang Man’s expression remained unchanged, looking at him, and asked again in a calm voice, “Si Jiahe, you know, I don’t like being deceived. Tell me, did you stop taking your medication again?”
Si Jiahe heard that Tang Man’s voice wasn’t quite right and subconsciously glanced up, just in time to meet Tang Man’s gaze. He hesitantly nodded, meeting Tang Man’s much colder gaze, and couldn’t help but feel a bit of trepidation.
Stammering, he explained, “Man Man, you didn’t come to see me these past few days. I couldn’t eat, and I didn’t want to take my medication.”
As he spoke, he couldn’t help but get teary-eyed again, wanting to hug Tang Man and act coquettishly as usual. “Man Man, I missed you a bit.”
However, Tang Man laughed and, for the first time, stopped Si Jiahe’s coquettish behavior. Her tone was a bit inexplicable as she said, “Si Jiahe, why do I feel like you deliberately didn’t want to take it?”
She looked at the boy who shrank back a little because of her words, the smile on her face completely gone. “Do you want to stay sick like this? Do you not want to be cured?”
Si Jiahe fell silent, but his hand tightly grasped Tang Man’s sleeve.
Tang Man felt a headache coming on. She pressed her brows, feeling a sense of fatigue.
She had been feeling tired frequently recently, mostly because of Si Jiahe’s issues. In fact, getting along with someone with depression was not simple, especially for Tang Man. She had once heard Doctor Bei talk about a depression case, with important information already obscured.
The mood of a person with depression could change easily, and it could also cause the mood of those around them to turn sour.
There was once a pair of good friends who came to her for treatment. The two had a great relationship, but one of them had depression, and the other friend fully accompanied them. However, after a long time together, the friend without the illness was also affected by the depressed patient who often fell into a low mood, and their own mood gradually worsened as well.
Curing depression was not simple. It required both medication and psychotherapy.
But Tang Man suddenly felt that all of this was too difficult for her. She had the thought of letting go of everything again, especially when Si Jiahe was unwilling to cooperate. The negative emotions she had accumulated during this period suddenly erupted.
“Jiahe, I think we may need to take some time to cool off.” She said these words to Si Jiahe in a relatively calm tone.
With one of them already emotionally unstable, there was no need for her to make the situation even worse.
Si Jiahe froze for a moment, looking at Tang Man, his eyes slowly filling with tears, falling one by one like a string of beads.
He shook his head, shook his head, and shook his head again.
One hand tightly clutched Tang Man.
He felt like he was about to be abandoned. It turned out that the nightmares he had been having recently came true. He was disliked by Man Man. It must be so. She didn’t like him anymore.
He shook his head, refusing to agree to Tang Man’s request.
“Man Man, I don’t want to break up.” Si Jiahe choked up, his entire body resisting. “I don’t want to break up with you.”
This time, he was unwilling to let go no matter what. He had already been abandoned once. This time, he couldn’t be abandoned no matter what.
He would die.
He couldn’t bear the cost of losing Tang Man again.
Si Jiahe cried too sorrowfully. Seeing this tear-stricken appearance, Tang Man couldn’t help but soften her heart a bit.
A boy, who knew where he got so many tears from, seemed to be unable to stop once he started crying.