Chapter 83 (3)

Tired? That’s easy to handle. The bedding has just been changed to clean ones, perfect for resting.

Lu Yuner pulled Su Qingwan to the bed. Looking at his delicate, fair, and handsome little face, she couldn’t help reaching out to rub it, saying with a smile: “If you’re tired, sleep for a while. I’ll wake you when the rain stops. The sky is getting darker, I’ll go light the lamps in the room.”

Su Qingwan watched her departing figure reluctantly, a complex look welling up in his eyes.

The next moment, bright candlelight lit up the room, bringing a touch of warmth to the originally dim and cold space. Then came Lu Yuner’s voice, “Ah Wan, I’ll be reading outside. Call me if you need anything.”

“Mm.” Su Qingwan’s eyes were very dim. The long-standing irritation in his heart made him lie in bed, tossing and turning, unable to sleep. The sound of rain outside annoyed him.

In fact, he wasn’t tired at all. “Tired” was just an excuse to test her. It turned out that as long as he didn’t take the initiative, Elder Sister Yun’er would always treat him within the bounds of propriety.

If he wanted to be close to her, she would always comply with his wishes, but would pull him back once they reached the edge of the boundary.

In matters of intimacy between men and women, he was always the one left unsatisfied, while Elder Sister Yun’er seemed to have a light, rational, or even indifferent attitude towards his desires.

Could it be that he truly held no charm for Elder Sister Yun’er?

He knew Elder Sister Yun’er had him in her heart, but how long would this affection last? What position did he hold in Elder Sister Yun’er’s heart? What if someone could replace his position?

Thinking of this, Su Qingwan suddenly felt afraid. A sense of insecurity made him instantly alert. Even if Elder Sister Yun’er was as unresponsive as a block of wood, he had to find ways to gradually make her understand.

Su Qingwan lifted the covers, got up, and slowly came to the screen. He saw the flickering figure in the candlelight in the distance, his expression rippling with countless heartbeats.

The warm yellow candlelight on the desk reflected on her face, making her whole person seem to glow, exceptionally elegant and unworldly. Her bright eyes focused seriously on the book on the table, her fair and slender fingers occasionally turning the pages gently, accompanied by the faint sound of page-turning.

Elder Sister Yun’er was of uncommon appearance and had an otherworldly aura. When not smiling, those enchanting peach blossom eyes were as cold as snow, exuding a sense of detachment and coldness.

Su Qingwan gazed at her silently, recalling this cold gaze, which he had seen before and felt deeply.

It was when he first mustered the courage to confess to Elder Sister Yun’er. At that time, she didn’t like him and treated him with such coldness.

Thinking about how he and Elder Sister Yun’er had come step by step to where they are today, many unfortunate things had happened. The journey had been truly difficult.

Now, firmly grasping her heart was what he should be doing.

“Ah Wan, why aren’t you asleep?” While preparing her lesson, Lu Yuner caught sight of Su Qingwan standing by the screen in her peripheral vision, silent and with a dazed look. She put down the book in her hand, walked over, and asked with concern: “What’s wrong?”

Lu Yuner saw that he was wearing only an undergarment. She pulled him inside, saying, “It’s cool on rainy nights. Let’s go back to bed and lie down.”

Su Qingwan came back to his senses, silently listening, his burning gaze closely following her, allowing her to lead him back to bed.

Lu Yuner sat beside him, helping him cover up with the blanket, and asked uncertainly: “Did the sound of me turning pages disturb you?”

Su Qingwan’s eyelashes fluttered, and after a second’s pause, he answered: “Mm.”

She hadn’t expected that despite her efforts to be quiet, she still disturbed him. It seemed the young master Su was a light sleeper. Lu Yuner, feeling apologetic, didn’t want to disturb him further and said: “Then I won’t read anymore. You sleep!”

Seeing her about to leave again, Su Qingwan, with an expressionless face, reached out to hold her, trying to ask: “Will you stay and keep me company?”

Lu Yuner looked at him, sat back down on the bed edge, and smiled slightly, “Alright, I’ll keep you company. Sleep now!”

Hearing her answer, there was no joy in Su Qingwan’s eyes. He had deliberately interrupted her reading because he wanted her to stay, but if he hadn’t asked her to stay, she wouldn’t have thought to keep him company on her own.

However, as long as he made any reasonable request, she would always agree.

During this time since returning to the capital, his relationship with Elder Sister Yun’er hadn’t experienced any substantial warming up, remaining as usual.

But he had been trying his best to learn how to be a good husband and father, learning various tasks like massaging shoulders, rubbing backs, and serving people, all to please Elder Sister Yun’er.

He wanted to understand her, but he found he couldn’t guess her thoughts, nor did he know what Elder Sister Yun’er truly wanted.

After a long silence, Su Qingwan gazed at her unblinkingly, “Elder Sister Yun’er, do you like me?”

Hearing this, Lu Yuner was slightly taken aback, then understood. All men liked sweet talk, saying some nice words was nothing more than adding a bit of romance.

Lu Yuner smiled and reached out to stroke his smooth cheek, saying softly: “I like you. Ah Wan is handsome, good to me, and knows how to care for people. How could I not like you!”

Su Qingwan gently held the hand caressing his face, his gaze burning as he looked into her eyes, “Then why doesn’t Elder Sister Yun’er have any feelings for me?”

“What?” A brief look of surprise flashed in Lu Yuner’s eyes as she carefully recalled the meaning behind his words. She quickly understood, her eyes flickering slightly as she said: “If I had no feelings for you, how could I have come to like you!”

Su Qingwan tried to explain: “But why…”

Lu Yuner knew what he was about to say and interrupted him, “Alright, go to sleep now! Otherwise, when the rain stops, you won’t be able to sleep anymore.”

Su Qingwan actually already knew the answer in his heart, and he knew that Elder Sister Yun’er was well aware too. But he still couldn’t help feeling a surge of bitterness in his heart. He looked at her with teary eyes, accusing in a choked voice: “Elder Sister Yun’er is pretending not to understand.”

After saying this, Su Qingwan turned his back to her, burying himself completely in the bedding, crying non-stop in heartbreak. The depression in his heart poured out along with the glistening tears, thoroughly venting the long-suppressed grievances.

Intermittent crying sounds came from under the blanket, like a child throwing a tantrum, sounding both coquettish and distressed.

Lu Yuner raised an eyebrow slightly. Su Qingwan’s sudden burst of tears, that heartbroken teary-eyed look, made her heart tremble.

How could she not know his thoughts? Young Master Su was just a pure virgin, having tasted a bit of sweetness in matters between men and women, he was even more eager to try more.

This love between men and women was a natural thing, how could it be easily attempted? Even if they hadn’t gone all the way, they were only engaged, not yet on their wedding night. On their wedding night, she naturally couldn’t act recklessly, nor could she leave any marks on his body, to avoid unnecessary gossip.

She was a normal person too. How could she not have any feelings when faced with his repeated deliberate teasing? Only she knew how hard it was to resist.

Lu Yuner leaned down close to the curled-up bundle, reaching out to pull back the blanket. The next moment, he had wrapped himself up like a silkworm cocoon and was holding on tightly. She could only coax him gently first: “Ah Wan, don’t cry anymore. It’s not good for your body to cover up like this. Be good!”

Lu Yuner suddenly paused, then continued in a serious tone: “Ah Wan, let’s talk.”

Su Qingwan heard the seriousness in Lu Yuner’s voice and felt inexplicably nervous. He stopped crying and turned over, revealing a tear-stained little face, choking out: “Talk about what?”

Lu Yuner wiped his tears tenderly, “Sit up first.”

Su Qingwan lifted the blanket and obediently sat up on the bed, asking somewhat puzzled: “Elder Sister Yun’er, what are we talking about?”

Lu Yuner didn’t answer verbally, but instead took off her shoes and outer clothes, got on the bed and sat face to face with him.

Lu Yuner smiled deeply as she slowly caressed those delicate features, from his picturesque brows and eyes to his slender white neck, moving downwards bit by bit. Everywhere her hand touched brought warmth, making Su Qingwan’s body tremble continuously.

His stunned gaze was full of disbelief as he stared at her blankly, obviously not having reacted yet.

“You don’t want to?” Seeing his dazed look, Lu Yuner’s lips curved upwards as she asked softly.

“I… I want to.” Su Qingwan stammered nervously.

His face was flushed red, so embarrassed that he dared not raise his eyes. At this moment, his heart was beating frantically at a high frequency, while he felt a great wave of heat rolling back and forth inside his body.

Looking at the shy-eyed youth before her, just a light touch would make his body sensitively blush all over.

Lu Yuner’s eyes deepened a few shades as she placed her hand under his clothes, slowly wandering like water droplets sliding down.

In the scorching skin-to-skin contact, suddenly Su Qingwan’s burning body stiffened.

Before, he had just felt uncomfortable all over, but with Elder Sister Yun’er’s light touch, this simple skin contact quickly raised a strange sensation.

Having read quite a few embarrassing little novels, Su Qingwan vaguely knew what it was. He shyly lowered his eyes slightly, and the next moment, with a crimson face, he quickly pulled over a nearby blanket to cover his body, leaving only a round little head exposed.

Lu Yuner sat with one hand supporting her chin, looking at the youth who had hidden his body, unable to hold back her laughter, “Hahaha—”

How to put it? Having been with Young Master Su for so long, she understood his temperament. Regarding intimacy between men and women, being inexperienced, he was completely blank.

Sometimes he seemed composed and bold in front of her, but in reality, he couldn’t overcome his “shyness”.

Looking at the situation now… it was still his first time.

“Elder Sister Yun’er—” Seeing her laugh so heartily, Su Qingwan said with a blushing face.

Lu Yuner stopped laughing and got off the bed, thinking about important matters for tomorrow. While tidying her clothes, she looked at him and said, “Alright, I won’t laugh anymore. Judging by the sound, the rain seems to have stopped. Get yourself ready, I’ll send you back to your residence in a while.”

Su Qingwan’s face was now red enough to explode, and he buried it even deeper, leaving only a pair of pitch-black eyes exposed.

Later, Su Qingwan stood fully dressed in front of Lu Yuner, his hands clasped together uncertainly. Lu Yuner took a bundle and leaned to whisper in his ear. The next moment, Su Qingwan’s face suddenly turned red, so embarrassed that he lowered his eyes even more.

Lu Yuner took Su Qingwan’s hand, smiling lightly, “Let’s go! I’ll send you back to your residence.”

After the rain, Qiu Yi was waiting for Lu Yuner at Zhaixian Gate.

After sending Young Master Su back, Lu Yuner sat in the carriage with her eyes tightly closed, her expression solemn as she said: “Qiu Yi, do you still remember the incident years ago when I almost entered Zhao Prison?”