Chapter 59: She Wanted to Truly Accept Him

In the following days, Xu Lu Cha was indeed busy. He left early and returned late every day, and Zhang Meng could rarely have a meal with him.

When Xu Lu Cha used to cling to her, Zhang Meng didn’t feel much. But now that Xu Lu Cha wasn’t clinging to her, she suddenly felt empty inside.

Jin Yue brought A Zhe to visit her. Seeing only Zhang Meng alone, she asked, “Where is Young Master Xu?”

“He went to take care of some business matters,” Zhang Meng answered truthfully.

A Zhe virtuously went to brew tea on the side, while Jin Yue leaned close to Zhang Meng and asked in a low voice, “Tell me the truth, how did you end up with Young Master Xu?”

When Jin Yue was still a constable, she and Zhang Meng had encountered Xu Lu Cha meeting with other women many times. Moreover, every woman Xu Lu Cha met with was one of the top figures in Yun City. At that time, Zhang Meng had told her that given Xu Lu Cha’s selfish and self-serving nature of flattering the powerful and trampling the weak, he would surely choose to marry the woman who could be of most use to him.

However, before Jin Yue had been married for half a year after resigning and returning to her hometown, she heard the news of Zhang Meng marrying Xu Lu Cha. When Jin Yue heard this news, she almost dropped the bowl in her hand.

Jin Yue had also heard that it was because Xu Lu Cha had persistently pursued Zhang Meng, even standing outside the government office for days and nights waiting for Zhang Meng to come out to see him, nearly losing his life, that Zhang Meng finally took pity on him and agreed to marry him.

Hearing this news, Jin Yue was utterly shocked. She had once bet with Zhang Meng that the person Xu Lu Cha would marry in the future would definitely be an extraordinary figure.

Looking at Zhang Meng’s unremarkable appearance, Jin Yue felt like grabbing Zhang Meng’s shoulders and shaking her vigorously, demanding to know if she had given Xu Lu Cha some kind of love potion.

“Zhang Meng, tell me, what exactly did Young Master Xu see in you?” Jin Yue asked, unwilling to give up.

She had thought that the person who could marry Xu Lu Cha, this black-hearted lotus, would be someone extraordinary, but she never expected it to be her once close friend, and this friend had been mocked countless times by her for being unable to find a husband. That subtle feeling of frustration was indescribable.

“I don’t know what he saw in me either,” Zhang Meng said absent-mindedly.

Jin Yue couldn’t believe that Xu Lu Cha would love Zhang Meng, and how could Zhang Meng dare to believe it? She still felt it was somewhat unreal.

Xu Lu Cha had confessed to her more than once, telling her that he loved her very much. She also told herself in her heart that she believed him. So, in order not to let Xu Lu Cha down, she would try her best to be good to him.

But no matter how hard she tried to accept Xu Lu Cha, she still couldn’t accept being intimate with him. At that time, she thought it was because she didn’t like him enough.

However, that wasn’t the case. She liked him. She didn’t know when it started, but she had come to like Xu Lu Cha.

But she didn’t dare to give her heart to him. She was afraid that Xu Lu Cha’s love for her was just a fleeting thing. She was guarding against Xu Lu Cha, forcing herself to look at the problems between her and Xu Lu Cha from a calm perspective. This way, even if Xu Lu Cha stopped loving her and left her in the future, she wouldn’t be heartbroken.

But now, it seemed she had already fallen in. She seemed unable to stay as calm as before.

Just a few days without hearing Xu Lu Cha’s gentle words to her, without feeling the warmth of Xu Lu Cha’s embrace, she felt as if a piece was missing from her heart, leaving it empty and very uncomfortable.

After chatting with Zhang Meng for a while, Jin Yue and A Zhe were about to leave. Before leaving, Jin Yue took out an exquisite black wooden box from the carriage and handed it to Zhang Meng: “This is the wedding gift from A Zhe and me to you and Young Master Xu. Although I still feel that you and Young Master Xu don’t quite match, and that you would be a better match with our A Yue… but still, I wish you happiness!”

“Mm, thank you,” Zhang Meng accepted the box with a smile and expressed her gratitude.

After Jin Yue and A Zhe left, Zhang Meng’s smile faded.

She hoped Xu Lu Cha would quickly finish dealing with his business matters, so they could open the gift from Jin Yue and the others together.

“Constable Zhang.”

A gentle voice sounded from behind. Zhang Meng turned around to see Ji Ming in white clothes. She smiled and nodded, “Young Master Ji.”

Ji Ming nodded slightly to her: “Constable Zhang, Ji Ming has some questions to ask you. Are you available now?”

Zhang Meng smiled and said, “Young Master Ji, please feel free to ask any questions. I’ve been so idle lately that I’m about to get moldy.”

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Ever since Ji Ming came to the government office, he had taken charge of all the landscaping projects there. He once told Zhang Meng that he really liked planting flowers and grass, but when he was in Yan City, his family never allowed him to touch these things, believing that planting flowers and grass was something only lowly gardeners would do. So at the government office, he was experiencing all his hobbies to the fullest.

Because Zhang Meng had once tended to the flowers and plants at the government office, she had some experience. When Ji Ming occasionally encountered problems he didn’t understand, he would come to ask Zhang Meng.

“Ji Ming has been taking care of them very carefully, but they’ve wilted,” Ji Ming said, placing two pots of orchids in front of Zhang Meng, his handsome face full of distress.

Zhang Meng used a tree branch to turn over the soil and saw that it was wet and sticky, tightly compressing the flower roots. She said helplessly, “Young Master Ji, this soil is too compact. The orchid roots can’t breathe at all. Look here, the roots have turned black.”

Zhang Meng helped Ji Ming change the soil for the orchids, then turned to Ji Ming and said, “Orchids like a well-ventilated environment. You can turn the soil for them from time to time.”

Ji Ming nodded and quickly wrote down what Zhang Meng said.

Having grown up in an official family, Ji Ming had basic skills in reading people’s expressions. Seeing Zhang Meng’s gloomy appearance, he knew it was because Xu Lu Cha had been leaving early and returning late these past few days.

“Constable Zhang…” He was about to comfort Zhang Meng when suddenly her face turned pale and her body swayed as if about to fall.

“Constable Zhang!” Ji Ming was startled and wanted to step forward to support her.

But Zhang Meng quickly returned to normal. Her face was rosy, and her breathing was steady. It was as if what Ji Ming had just seen was only his illusion.

“Constable Zhang, are you alright?”

Zhang Meng saw Ji Ming’s shocked expression and was a bit puzzled: “I’m fine. Why do you ask, Young Master Ji?”

She seemed to have been in Ying’s tower just now, and even saw Ying, but it was only for an instant before Ying disappeared. She was still in the real world. It must have been an illusion.

She smiled and nodded to Ji Ming: “Young Master Ji, if there’s nothing else, I’ll head back now.”

“Constable Zhang…” Ji Ming quickly called out to her, but when she raised her eyes to look at him, Ji Ming didn’t know what to say. “It’s nothing, I just wanted to thank you,” he finally said.

“No need to thank me,” Zhang Meng replied.

Zhang Meng returned to her own courtyard and saw Xu Lu Cha sitting by the stone table, fiddling with a food box.

“Lu Cha,” Zhang Meng called out. When she saw Xu Lu Cha’s beautiful eyes look towards her, the gloomy mood she had been in all day instantly dissipated.

“Lu Cha, why are you back? Have you finished dealing with the business matters?”

Before Zhang Meng could get close to Xu Lu Cha, he stood up and rushed towards her.

He hugged Zhang Meng tightly with both arms, his thin lips kissing Zhang Meng’s neck several times before he was willing to let go of her.

“It’s not done yet, I just missed you. Zhang Meng, I missed you so much.”

After negotiating with those disgusting women for several days, he was about to vomit. He still had to keep smiling at them. He almost wanted to open his fan and give each of them a slash.

Xu Lu Cha pulled Zhang Meng’s hand, bringing her to the stone table, and pressed on her shoulders to make her sit down.

“Pastries from Yingyue Teahouse, I brought them back especially for you.”

“Thank you, Lu Cha.” During the days when Xu Lu Cha wasn’t by her side, she had thoroughly understood her own heart. Now facing Xu Lu Cha, there was more tenderness in Zhang Meng’s eyes.

She leaned close to Xu Lu Cha and gently kissed his rosy lips.

“Lu Cha, I missed you too.”

She suddenly didn’t want to force herself to guard her heart anymore. She wanted to believe in Xu Lu Cha, believe that he wouldn’t abandon her.

She wanted to truly accept him.

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